Quick note on gear

[professionaljaywlker]

There's something really bizarre about dysphoria sometimes. I've been obsessed with how my mind thinks running something over my beak should feel like. Running it on sticks/stones to clean it. The sensory input from holding something. The "weight" of it when chattering. It's something so utterly pointlessly specific, but every time I wear my masks I just end up running my fingertips over and over the beak, convincing my brain to try to phantom feel it as if it was really there. It's weirdly heartbreaking when you get so, so close with gear, that it somehow tears yourself open in a whole new way.